The Unknown

I feel like I am walking down a path on the unknown. I can't see much farther down it, its covered in dark patches. I am walking on the path of unknown plans. Instead of turning and running back the way I have come, I have no choice but to press on and trust in the Lord. "For I know the plans I have for you..." I trust in Him, that He will hold my hand and lead Mark and I down this new path in life. Its hard somedays though. There is so much that we don't know about the next 6 months. We know that Mark will be at Basic for 13 weeks. There is a possibility that he will have some kind of leave after that, and then he is headed to the next step of training (which I have no idea what that is). Then after that we have no idea where he will be stationed, if he will be deployed (although they are telling us that there is something like a 90% chance that he will be deployed). We have no idea where all of this leaves me. I know that as of November 15th the United States Marine Corps. comes before wife, family and friends in Mark's life. I just wish I knew where this left me. Thankfully my parents are very welcoming and understanding and are letting me stay with them while Mark is at Basic and beyond that until we actually know more. I wish there was someone in that recruiting office that could tell us more.

Its ironic, I usually am sitting at work when I type my blogs. This job is much better than my job at Starbucks was, but its really boring. I have a lot of time on my hands and feel very unproductive most days. I hate sitting around with nothing to do. Even though I like the people I work for, I am still looking at other job opputunities and apply for them. I have so much time on my hands during the day at work that I don't think it is going to be a healthy job for me once November rolls around. I have too much time to sit and think. I have the type of personality that needs to stay busy. I wish I could go back to being a figure skating coach and dance teacher. I miss that.

Mark and I are trying to figure out what we are going to do the last two weeks together before Basic Training. He will be done with work at the end of October and I am taking the first two weeks of November off. We were hoping to go out of town for a few days, but that isn't looking financially possible. We are trying to figure out what we want to do to celebrate our first anniversary since we have to celebrate a few month early. He will be gone for Thanksgiving, Christmas, Our First Anniversary, New Years and Valentine's Day. So somehow we have to celebrate all of them together before November 15th. He feels really bad about our Anniversary, but I reminded him that God willing, we will have many years of anniversaries when he is out of the Marines.

Mom and I were discussing November 16th. I am suppose to return to work that day because my boss told me I probably didn't want to stay home all day and lay in bed in cry (which she is wrong, that is probably exactly what I will want to do). But I really don't want to sit at my desk at work (bored) all day and cry, because that is what will end up happening if I come to work that day. So Mom was saying that she would spend the day with me and that we could go to Disney or I could Ice Skate all day or something like that. We also decided we are going to eat a giant Sam's Club Coconut Cake that day (ourselves...okay, I will share with the family). I am so blessed to have such an awesome and supportive and loving Mom and also a great family and awesome friends!